Monday, June 30, 2008

New and Improved Tortoise Beach



Forgive the horrid photograph, taken with my phone because I can't seem to find my "soccer mom" camera and I'm too lazy to drag out the Canon.

The tortoises kept digging up new dirt and kicking it into their water bowl/pool. So I moved the pool and made a little beach around it, plus I filled it up about halfway with the same rocks so that the dirt would filter down to the bottom and so the poor tortoises wouldn't be afraid of drowning.

They seem to like the new set-up!

Ask and Ye Shall Receive

Remember when I said, "If you can't beat 'em, join 'em?" Well, I did.

And now I'm gonna take over. Mwahahaha!

Some have asked for new photos, so here you go! This is from a little photo shoot on Sunday: the photographer was looking for people with "character" for outdoor work to plump up her portfolio a bit. Good stuff!!

Me with a big reflector in my face. Though it burnt my retinas at the time, I am now grateful for its amazing power to erase wrinkles and bad skin!


Mw and my sponsor, Mongo. He is aptly named.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Is it a waste of precious, valuable time attempting to incite compassion in the masses? I don't mean the "give us your money and we'll feed the world" type of compassion, and I also don't mean the "social program" type of compassion. I mean everyday, human-being, but-by-the-grace-of-God-go-I compassion. Do you feel the cold and impersonal wall of distance that greets each step you take in public? I do. And it breaks my heart, because I don't think compassion is a waste of time. It breaks my heart because I don't think compassion is too much to ask. Believe me when I tell you that sometimes a warm, sincere smile from a stranger is the difference between choosing to live or choosing to die.

What about leadership? Is that a waste of time and resources too? Is a title, a grander paycheck, and a corner office enough to transform a hard-working employee into a boss who will inspire excellence? I think not. Moreover, I think that it's a personal responsibility to ensure that I don't promote beyond my ability to lead, to inspire, to teach, and to impassion. Leadership - TRUE LEADERSHIP - requires transparency, empathy, humility, and the patience of Job. Dictatorship is NOT leadership. Standing on the shoulders of giants is NOT leadership. "Perfection" - whatever that might be - is NOT leadership. Accept that promotion if you dare - but ensure that you are up to the task, because leadership means courage enough to succeed and courage enough to fail, not just for yourself but for those you lead.

And craftsmanship? Is that a bygone concept as well? I think of my father, psychotic in so many ways, but a craftsman beyond compare. He applied his skill and deftness to everything he touched, be it a delicate, spider-web thin wood etching, a to-scale and perfectly recreated model airplane, or the implements he handmade to punish my sister and me. Hours of time, infinite patience, meticulous attention to detail, and a genuine love of creation were devoted to items that most people would be content to purchase in a department store. His perfectionism and eye for detail weren't exercised because he was going to sell the items, or because he was going to enter a contest, or because he wanted acclaim. He demonstrated pride in craftsmanship simply because that's the way it is done. My place of employment used to practically teem with such people. Now it seems that people do just what is necessary to get by; putting forth the least amount of effort necessary for a finished, but immature, product. Yet another insight that breaks my tired heart, as craftsmanship is very fulfilling... having a job is not.

Strange to say, but perhaps the most dismaying question of all remains - who do we represent when we egress the safety of our homes and face the world each day? What does my attire, my facial expression, the state of repair of my shoes, the condition of my vehicle, my attitude, and my speech say about my family? My friends? My employer? My upbringing? My personal code of ethics? Do those things - those superficial, first-impression, open-to-interpretation-by-anyone-on-the-street things - tell the world what I want the world to know? It's easy to say "I don't care what other people think," or "You have no right to judge me," but it's just as easy to accept that humans-at-large are going to make snap decisions based on my appearance, my grooming, my attitude, and my speech that have the potential to reflect on my children, my spouse, my friends, my employer, and perceptions of my ethical system. It only takes a few moments longer to think before I speak, to plan the next day's wardrobe instead of throwing it together at the last minute, to polish my shoes, or to ensure that my dress, manners, and attitude reflect the highest moral caliber - and the effort results in impressions that are pervasive and long-lasting. Otherwise, it only takes a second for a person - perhaps just the person I needed to talk to about a new job, or my child's IEP, or my elderly parents' care - to dismiss me outright. Is representation a waste of time and effort? Only if you truly don't care what people think.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

MSU's Prehistoric Molar


It’s a crappy photograph (taken with my cell phone), but that’s one of MSU’s molars next to a dime. Yes, that’s a TOOTH.

You’ll notice that the tooth, sitting there so incongruently, has a $900 crown on it. The crown was so well done that it didn’t budge a bit when the tooth was yanked. And why, you ask, was the tooth yanked? Because the $1000 root canal he had on that very tooth approximately two years ago FAILED (as you can see by the gargantuan root) and the root continued to grow until it affected the flesh, bone, and nerves around it.

So, by my calculations, that’s $1900 laying there next to that dime. It’s sort of funny, actually: I placed the dime next to the tooth for perspective. 10-cent dime and $1900 tooth. Which one is more valuable today? HA HA HA HA HA.

The good news: pulling the tooth was free. Finally, a benefit to that dental coverage I’m supposed to have.

MSU informed me that he has an appointment in a month to get an implant. I replied incredulously, “Implant? Whatever for?” He said, somewhat condescendingly, “To replace the pulled tooth.” Stunned, I asked, “But why? It’s in the back. No one can see it.” MSU smugly informed me that his “face will change” if he doesn’t replace the tooth, and self-righteously posited that I “wouldn’t want THAT to happen.”

HA! Ha ha ha ha ha! How about I change it for you right now, you patronizing dillwad?

Okay, I didn’t say that.

Silly me, I thought that the million-dollar smiles currently sported by my two eldest daughters represented the pinnacle of dental expense, especially the veneers and reconstruction that make my middle daughter’s glorious smile so, well, glorious. No so!! The single implant that MSU is scheduled to receive will cost us $3400, more than we spent on our eldest’s entire regime of orthodontia and roughly one-fourth of what we spent on 4 years of orthodontia, reconstruction, and 7 veneers for our middle daughter. For ONE stinking implant. $3400 is more than I’ve spent on my mouth in my ENTIRE LIFE.

For what? Nothing but simple vanity, in my humble opinion. But SHEESH! Would you look at the ROOT on that damn thing??? If it weren’t the harbinger of more financial woes, I’d be pretty dang impressed.

Monday, June 09, 2008