My Soul's Voice

In a kinda-sorta-maybe elaboration on a previous post (http://daughterofnight.blogspot.com/2011/02/goofy-theory-that-is-keeping-me-awake.html), I have decided to practice being LESS sentient.

Yes, you read that right. LESS sentient.

I wrote: "So, it stands to reason that there is something about us that is not our bodies and something else about us that is not our minds. There is no doubt in my “mind” (haha) that when my body ceases to exchange energy information between its systems, my brain – the thing that we posit contains our central computer and thus the “I AM” part of us – will cease exchanging information as well, as it is the central part of that system indeed. But the energy that compels me to know I AM I forever, throughout a life in which all cellular information is replaced several times, must be in direct systemic exchange with a similar and relative energy. An exchange that would continue regardless of the communication shutdown in the shrouded and particular systems of this coalescence of cells that I call my body. Could this direct systemic energy exchange between the field that dictates my particular energy and whatever relative field that confirms it be the Soul? And could this constant resonation from the relative energy be the source of what we call “emotion,” which, for the purposes of this theorizing would then be held as the electromagnetic and subatomic system of… God?"

Which is a very strange coincidence, because my tattoo artist gave me a book last Friday. And the author of that book said pretty much the SAME thing. There is something about us that is not physical. There is something about us that is not our "minds." And that something is made of Light, and Divinity, and the ALL. That something is WHO WE ARE. Our BEING. And we suppress our Being with... (you guessed it)... thought.

I wrote: "So, if emotion is the voice of our “soul,” that connection to the relative system outside the system- of- the- body configuration, and we rely on our “minds” to dissect this emotion, respond to this emotion, label this emotion, deconstruct this emotion, dislike this emotion, avoid this emotion, expect this emotion, make choices in relation to this emotion… then aren’t we arrogantly using our dubious power of discrimination (choice) to subvert, muffle, second-guess, and over-analyze our connection with the Divine? Aren’t we then torturing ourselves with the curse of “free will,” when in fact, that sense of “free will” is only a by-product of an inferior and almost completely unrelated system? And when we do that… aren’t we then killing our personal system? Damaging the cells? Poisoning ourselves?"

Strangely enough, this is also addressed in my new book. Strangely enough, this is, upon further research, addressed by almost every spiritual Master in history. Feeling an emotion is being fully present in NOW. Dissecting the emotion, reliving the emotion over and over, blaming for the emotion, surrounding the emotion with THOUGHT forces that emotion into both the Past and the Future. Think about past and future for a second. Do they exist? Are they real? Really thing before you answer... because the answer is no. The past is an illusion. The future is an illusion. Both illusion are created by our minds to shroud NOW. HERE and NOW are ALL THAT IS. And believing that our identity is crafted by our past is a fallacy and creates suffering in our lives. Believing our future will contain the fruition of all this "work" is an illusion and creates suffering in our lives. Suffering is an illusion created by our thinking, not by our Souls. When we THINK, we reside only in that illusion state, the Past and the Future. When we are fully present in our lives, fully BEING, then we are wholly in the NOW and knowing there is no threat NOW, there is no pain NOW, there is no need NOW, I am perfect NOW, I AM NOW.

I wrote: " It seems to me that the systemic connection from “I AM” to the relative and ultimately containing field is constant, unending, irrefutable, and is the True Source, the Divine, the Universal Mud, whatever you want to call it. We do the Great System a grand disservice by failing to nurture the connection, and using the excuse of “free will” for the death of our souls.

In other words: We kill ourselves with “what if?” We kill ourselves with fear. We kill ourselves with denial. We kill ourselves with the belief that we are less than perfect. We kill ourselves with the belief that we are separate, alone, entities unto ourselves and nothing else. We kill ourselves with the overuse of the inferior system (mind) of the body’s configuration rather than nurturing that system with the energy of the connection to the Source.

I can’t get it out of my head: What if your Soul’s voice was the only voice you heard?"

So, I ask myself again: What if the Soul's voice is the only voice I hear? What if BEING is all I do? What if I use thought only in the practical sense, the everyday sense and focus that thought on what I am doing NOW and not what may come out of it in that non-existent, that NOT REAL future? What if I observe my thoughts as a witness, and thus remove their power to (seemingly) control me? What if, in each moment, I KNOW that I already have everything I need? That I was crafted in perfection and in perfect sync with the rest of the System?

Because RIGHT NOW, I can do that. Because RIGHT NOW, I need nothing and I can be fully present in the moment, in my life, in my heart, in this System. Because RIGHT now, there is no past, there is no future, there is nothing to fear. Because RIGHT NOW, I AM. And granting any kind of awareness to my ego and it's constant litany of illusory bullshit take awareness from BEING. Right now, BEING is so cool.

And right now, too.

And now.

And now.

There is joy here. There is ease. There is light.