Found

I thought, "Oh, there you are!"

The sensation immediate and physical,

but woven with dismay as well.

That moment of recognition

followed by the immediate realization

that faith had failed me

on some long-ago and unremembered day

when - still a child! - I chose

to believe not in Destiny

but in destination.

And there you were, as promised

the proof of my own negation,

pulsing with supernova velocity

through a room filled with strangers.

My being irrevocably permeated

with a terrible and exhilarating certainty

that with or without contact

the knowledge alone would change everything

that was truth - or untruth - before.

And my heart both leapt with joy

and shrieked, stricken with terror,

that your imminent and apparent existence

which filled my senses and tasted of promise

would consume me

and thus make me whole.